Robot Habits and Attachments - Self-Reflections of Being at Home with Family

I have been staying at my parent's house due to my grandad passing away.

While staying with my parents, I noticed how quickly I fall into my old lazy habits.

Almost automatically...

Letting my mum cook my dinner, not wanting to clean the dishes, not wanting to move my body, while judgements and anger come out towards them...

When I'm living by myself, I enjoy cooking and moving my body.

However, as soon as I arrive home, like a robot, I fall back into doing nothing and expecting Mum to look after me.

I wasn't conscious of my behaviour.

I only just realised how strong my attachment to family is.

Maybe, it has something to do with my karma?

I have a lifetime of experiences living at home with my mum. I have recorded endless scenes of us into my brain. Being cared for, watching mum cook and clean for me...

I cooked lunch for my parents. While doing so, I noticed the strength of my self-centredness. I had to push through my self-centredness in order to give them scrambled eggs on toast.

The lazy me awakens when I arrive home.

I fall into a dream, as soon as I enter my parent's property.

This is my self-reflection for the week.